Guilty...

I'm feeling so guilty for not staying home to accompany my grandma who just lost a good friend and accompany my parents even though we do our own stuffs. Why do I feel it when I'm enjoying time with my friends? Am I unable to balance that between family and friends? I really hate the feeling cause it makes me feel like a lousy person, like I'm not filial enough. I want to talk things with my parents, like my admission for the NUS LPP and seek their opinions. I ought to spend time with my grandma who has just lost her best friend. Darn it, the more I type, the more guilty shit I feel. But at the same time, I wanna spend my time with friends too. It should be balanced. Why do I have so much concerns? Enlighten me, please.

Twittering is really great, let my random thoughts be recorded.
Loved and take care.